PUZZLED.

Why is my mind always so confused about such things.?? Just when i thought i had my mind settled, the feeling of doubt always comes in. Why?? I hate this feeling. I hate the feeling of undecisiveness. It just sucks. Just hope it does not bother me too much and i want to think carefully before making the decision.

Woah... finally a hectic week has finally ended... hahaha.... gotta say...it has been quite a testing week for me....cuz i had to stay up almost everynight to complete my sunlove camp program stuff and also do my assignments and projects...can say i didnt have enough sleep and didnt really play much games..haha...it has been a fruitful week though...in terms of the doubts that were in my mind...at least i know what to do... :) ...hahah...

And not to mention the sun love camp meeting on thursdae....hahhaha....it was veri fun....hahah...even though before that i had quite a bad day...haha..but the meeting cheered me up.!!!... Kudos to Sun Love Sub Comm!!hahah....yeah...

didnt turn up for training today... cuz my ankle was hurting....n i couldnt even jog...not to mention run....but anyways...at least i can rest....to prepare for standard chartered marathon 21km run...on 2nd december....haha..looking forward to that....hehheh... :)

Im feeling so stressed up by recent events. why cant i get myself some breathing space??why am so busy all of a sudden??a clash of commitments?? maybe.

I have 3 things hovering over my priority list in my head now, Studies, Sun Love Camp and St John Advance NCO course... last week i just started on my group assignment for my User Interface Design module...We are splitted into groups and have to create a website using dreamweaver...which me and my classmates find its the most lousiest software on earth...its juz so freakin frustrating to use it!!!! ...

Den last week my st john annual advance nco course began...the course days are on the weekends so my weekends are burnt!... no time for my other stuff on weekends except for at night...and even so....i have to sleep early cuz i have to wake up at 5am on the course days to meet my friends at BB interchange... Me and my friends are platoon sergeants and instructors during the course...so we have to report earlier..

Throughout the course, our job is to b responsible of our platoons along with our other platoon sergeants. Its a rather important role and sometimes we really have to shout and scold the cadets because they are either not paying any attention or are not doing what they are told to do...however, i also have another job, which is that of an admin NCO...which means i have to update every admin stuff from the trainees's profile list to all the platoon details...

Last but certainly not least, i have my sun love camp to handle...which we have to submit the proposal this thursday...so u see...me and shu juan (We are the Programme Co-ordinators) have to chiong everything by tomorrow...to send to our CC and ACC...its not easy to plan stuff..seriously...

So that explains why my stress level is at an all time high..... Im seriously gonna get very worn down...im not getting enough sleep....havent studied for my common test yet....and i really hope i won't break down all of sudden....realli....

ARGGHH!!!The Stress is seriously getting to me!!!
cant breathe...

today after school....i went to westmall's pro trim to have a haircut....
i told the lady i wanted my hair short and keep it thin...before that i found my curly hair almost impossible to style...so i decided to go have a hair cut..... i even thought about being BOTAK....hah...but after some straight thinking...i decided to just have a normal haircut...

However....after washing and cutting my hair...the lady told me it was done...i was kinda surprised..cuz it was kinda fast....when i looked into the mirror...i was stunned...it looked like i didnt even have a haircut..juz dat my hair was thinner...but...it wasnt what i expected and wanted..so i ask her to cut thinner .... the fringe became thinner alright...but it was like...i never even went for the hair cut.... WTH

So there goes my $25....the oni thing good was the head massage...other than that....i felt that i wasted the $25.... omg..... i dun think i will go there again... and i am quite sure that i will cut my hair again one month later....

YeaP.....

Change is the only Constant :)

hey guys...haha...yeah..dun worry about my previous post...im feelin better than last week....should stop staying in gloomy side of life and look forward to the bright side of life :)..hahaha..yeah...thanks for your concerns...really appreciated it :)...

So anyways..heres my new blogskin....is it nice...think its somewhat unique..dont you think so??..hmm...wads ur comments :)..hahaa....

and heres my first song of my new blogskin... Apologize by Timbaland Ft. One Republic.

" Apologize "

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say..

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the Angel Heaven let me think was you,
But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
Woahooo woah

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, a yeah

I'm holding your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground...

BOILING!!!!

Im sick and tired of your behaviour. WHAT HAVE U CONTRIUBUTED TO THE HOUSE!!! NOTHING!!! and you can still happily take things for granted.... BEAR IN YOUR BLOODY MIND!!! ... THIS ISN'T YOUR HOUSE!!! ..... YOU FUCKED UP BITCH!!!.... you have been doing nothing so far.... so just get lost... I have lost all form of respect for u....