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there are times when i wonder if i can really stay positive and and not think about negative thoughts. ever since i entered poly, i've become a more positive thinking person than ever. That's a good thing and something im proud of. in a way.entering poly has changed my outlook of life. when i was in secondary school. i don't know why, but i wasn't really one who had a very positive outlook of life. I found it difficult to think about positive stuffs. and i certainly do not wish to touch on the period towards the end of my sec 4 or the short period thereafter.

currently, i would say im much better off. Little things which used to put me down are now things that i wouldn't give a damn about. even in the face of minor obstacles i would tell myself to focus on the path ahead, towards the destination.

however, i find it puzzling why cant i just think positive for a longer period of time. I have learnt and trained myself not to allow negative thoughts to enter my mind that easily. It is not easy. Cuz nowadays negative thoughts seem to be able to seep into my mind even when i am not thinking of anything. why is that?

Really. i dont like to make emo post. its the very last thing i want to do. i like to make happy posts. when i make such posts i will sometimes smile at the screen for no apparent reason.dont ask me why.don't worry im not crazy or anything.mayb its just that im really happy on that particular day.

So i really hope i can have more happy stuff to blog about. i wanna be even more positive thinking. when i see friends feeling down or emo. i always tell them not to feel so down and would tell them to think of positive stuff. It works. i've tried it before.

So with that, i end my post.leaving my question unanswered.maybe there is no answer for it.maybe its just human nature.well.i shall leave it to me to discover the answer myself.